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I Love Bars

Why would a recovering Alcoholic spend so much time in a bar? I’m a psychiatrist‘s dream patient. I’m going to try and answer this as honest as possible. I’m an old movie buff. As far back as I can remember, I’ve always enjoyed those old movies set in prohibition in Speak Easy’s and also in the 3o’s and 40’s where men dressed like men in suits and top hats 🎩 and would drink and smoke cigars and discus and make business deals. I‘ve always been fascinated with bars. and they still do. I especially liked the bars set in Old England and Ireland. The Wood oak bars, were the best. Of course I also liked when they introduced a female character that would be one of the boys and would drink a shot of Irish whiskey and Smoked a cigar. Traveling to Ireland and Old bar hopping was on my bucket list and believe it or not is still on my list. When I came of drinking age I lived in bars and met many interesting people. I loved the companionships and all that came with it. Unfortunately, my Alcoholism and Love of bars was a deadly combination as most of you know. When I decided to get clean and Sober, and for the Record, I have Zero regrets, It was the the Best decision I ever made. It hit me really hard in Rehab when they told me “you are here to learn and accept you can’t drink, you are not here for us to teach you how to drink”. I was mad and depressed at first but it was time. When I decide to do something, I give it my 💯 %! That’s just how I am. That’s how I approached my drinking, and that’s how I approached my Sobriety. One night I was thinking and the more I thought the angrier I got. My mind is very powerful. I learned to control my thoughts in rehab and learned to not act out so viciously and quick. I learned to take a step back, analyze the situation and make prudent decisions. My Faith in God also comes into play in all my decisions now. He’s like Marlon Brando in the God Father to me. Where you come to him with your problem and he just sits there and listens, then he smiles at you and tells you what you are going to do and you accept it. I told him how mad I am and how the Devil has taken so much from me and he’s taking this away also. We came to the conclusion

“why let him take this to?” The bar is not the problem, the drinking is. This is what you are going to do. Your going to keep going to places you enjoy, be with people you enjoy being with, you‘re just not going to drink!

Ok? ok! people always say “ but this is so dangerous? Yes, but My God is powerful and when I commit to something I commit to it 💯! No demon is going to dictate to me how to Live. I’m Stronger! im Not going to lie, I get this sense of Invincibility, this high being Sober, surrounded by Vices. I think some people might relate to this. At the end of day we are among Wolves and we must be strong. Never give in to your Demons.

I play with mine and I know it irritates them and that in itself makes me Happy. YOU WILL NEVER BEAT ME

God Bless 💪🙏💜











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